Ever since the day I was dropped at her family’s door
HUNGRY, DIRTY, and TORN, I’ve wanted her.
But to taint her perfect skin with my black touch would be a SIN.
So I made a pact with myself—
NEVER TOUCH NICOLE PALMER.
However, when she returns home from college, she’s different, and I’m not sure I can trust myself to keep my pact. I can’t submit to her TEMPTATION no matter how sweetly she begs because she’s the GOLDEN CHILD and I’m the BLACK SHEEP.
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When a boy lives in the very depths of hell for 12 long years, it’s easy to understand that he’ll have deep scars and even deeper demons…that his brokenness will penetrate every aspect of his life and force him to be closed off and feel unworthy of anything good because all he’s ever known is darkness, pain, and abuse. It’s also easy to understand why a girl would be drawn to a boy who does everything to protect her…everything to keep the light that surrounds her bright and untarnished.
He’s the devil to her angel…he’s the broody one alone in the corner while her cheerfulness and selflessness endear her to others. He’s haunted by his past while her memories hold love and contentment.
At face value, this broken boy and this angelic girl couldn’t be more opposite, which would stand to reason that their interaction should not spark feelings of love and his darkness should never invade her light. But there’s so much more to the boy who has now become a man and the girl who has loved him for 7 years sees who he is down to his soul, and while he may see himself as the black sheep of the family, she sees him as her EVERYTHING.
Tyson has always loved Nicole, but he’s done so from afar, keeping his feelings as well as his need for her to himself because he refuses to taint her goodness…he refuses to allow her to see his blackened soul. Tyson lives his life protecting those he loves because for the first 12 years of his life no one did that for him and he doesn’t want anyone he loves to be afraid or unprotected from the hazards and filth of the world.
Nicole doesn’t see Tyson the way that he sees himself; she sees him for the fighter and survivor that he is. Her only desire is to be with Tyson in a way that he refuses to allow, but what Tyson doesn’t understand is that every time he turns Nicole away…every time he makes her feel unwanted, even though he’s doing it because he feels she is too good for him, he loses pieces of her and winds up doing more damage than he could have ever imagined.
Nicole may not have the same life experience that Tyson does, but she’s a person who knows what it means to love with her whole heart and want to help those in need. She also knows how devastating life can be and she understands the things that have to be done in order to ensure life goes on even when people would rather it didn’t. She’s a guiding light for Tyson, even if she doesn’t know it, and that connection will hopefully see them through things that are out of their control as the story plays out.
Black Sheep is an emotional journey for both Tyson and Nicole. Tyson may be allowing his past to dictate his present, but the events that occur in the present also send the two characters spiraling out of control in a number of ways, and all of the emotional turmoil that they go through resonates from the pages of the book. Tabatha Vargo allows readers to truly understand how scarred Tyson is by what happened to him when he was little by giving readers his first hand perspective. Tyson’s torment and feelings of unworthiness become another character in the storyline, keeping Tyson a prisoner to his own thoughts and forcing him to act out against those he loves most. There were many times as I was reading that Tyson’s self-loathing really got to me; he was like a wounded animal acting out for survival when he didn’t have to…he just needed to take the love that Nicole was willing to give him and run with it, but it also makes sense why he couldn’t.
Tyson may not be easy to love, but he definitely deserves to be and Nicole makes it her mission to prove that to him regardless of how difficult the task may be.
A complimentary copy was provided in exchange for an honest review.
4.5 Poison Apples